im really sorry to my baby gal. not only leaving her very early, trouble her to travel around with me but also getting scolded because of me. my baby really suffered. think she had drop more tears then i do.
yst ran out of the house whole body felt very heaty for couples of hours. sucided had also come to mymind but only thinking about it only. i cant do it cause i still have my baby gal. ^^
but i swear i will make it up for her next week.
Archive for October, 2009
BAD ANNIVERSARY
Prove it
if anyone of you till now still think i am not capable of doing anything, just go away, leave me alone, i dont want to argue with you. if i say i can do i sure can do. stop bothering of what im doing. i do my stuff, u do yours don come bother me.
stop thinking i need someone to rely on, i can be on my own.i already had been on my own for so long le, why still say i had been taken care of?? if you think you are taking care of me then scram off. i don need it. i settle my own things, don ever to be KPO and try to help then after that say you helped because i wont be able to do it.
“i wont be able to do it”??? thats what you think, and thats your problem. i know what i am capable for. this message is for anyone thats breathing.
Back from camp. i heard…
when i am back from camp i heard from my mum that my precious photo frame is broken. broken cause drop from my bed. will be trying to get 1 similar one back before she realize it. it suppose to be my 20th birthday present. but that time she told its the last one. but still will try my best,or dun mention it again.
Got punishment in unit!!1
Had got an informal punishment by my unit CSM (discipline master). For getting caught not tucking in my civilian cloth by MP(military police) on children’s day when night out. in Army every punishment are recorded, think is because to protect themselves and a chance for us to know what are we wrong at.
for me today i was asked to go and sign the book. but no one forced me to sign, theres also others who got it but they chose to avoid and drag it hopefully CSM will forget. but for me, for my promotion i tries to be outstanding and only do the right things. it can also shows that i am willing to admit my mistake.
i was punished to wear Army uniform out for a week, while others are in civilian cloths. but to me it dun sound like punishment, it sound more like a joke to take that as punishment.
